Tuesday, March 8, 2011

1/3/03-4/3/03 - Blast from the Past - Stacy`s Diary

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April 03 2003
My cat is soooo crazy. He is running around playing in the empty Avon Boxes. He will hide it one of them. I will then close the lid. Then Kaiko will walk by the box and Johnny, who is inside, will pop out, scare and chase poor frightened Kaiko. It is soooo funny to watch. Johnny got so caught up in playing that he knocked down one of my many CD holders. All 100+ of my CD`s came crashing down. Fortunately no one got hurt. Johnny will be 12 years old this summer and still acts like a new kitten….hehehe…takes after his mother!
So what did you think of my Bikini layout in Tongue Magazine? I think it came out pretty good, I am pretty impressed. I love the issue I am in (#4), I read it cover to cover. I am very honored to be in such a terrific issue! I am even quoted in Hollywood`s Wrestling article! I was even reading about Shauna Sands as she was sunning herself next to me at the Mansion. So Sur-real, so cool!
I am trying out Hydroxycut. So far I like it! it gives me energy, which I was lacking and needed greatly and it helps me to move more….which I love!!! It is a diet supplement that helps you lose weight, gain more energy and makes you not so hungry. It is safe, no bad chemicals. This is only my 2nd week on it and I love it. Only lost a pound or so, but it is only 1 week. I need it this week, since I have 6 wrestling matches this week!!

Oxox, Stacy

March 27 2003
Yea, I am back from New York!!! I missed my Kitty Kats sooo much. I cuddled them all night long when I got home. BondConNYC went terrific!! My voice did try to disappear but it never made a complete exit. I was a good girl. I only scheduled shoots the day before and the day after the convention, so I would not tire myself out. I did not go to the after convention parties, except to The Bondage Ball where I did a stage performance with Persephone (in which I will post the video up here soon for your viewing pleasure) or out on the town. After the convention ended I went up to my room, ordered room service, rested in my comfy PJ`s and got plenty of sleep. Next year, I would like to try to venture out a bit more and see New York, I have been there almost 5 times and still have not seen very much of it. I did get to go into Manhattan on the last night along with Mistress Persephone, her husband Tim, Lady J, her Girlfriend and a very car sick friend. We went to a cool little all night diner that had an awesome menu consisting of Polish food! I had a cheese blintz, a few Perogies and a potato pancake, which was very good.
I think my ‘lull’ is over! I feel better now that I am back. I guess I needed a jolt to my schedule. Now I am energized. I have a ton of things to do and sooo many photo shoots this month!!! I feel the stress that I love and crave once more. I guess I can only take so much luxury. I love having a over loaded schedule with little time. I get motivated by that and the stress is the fuel that keeps me going. Ah, yes…..some people love relaxation, I fear it, it is my enemy…it is my Kryptonite!

Oxox, Stacy

March 20 2003
Ok, I got to stop whining about being in this Lull that I am in. I have no reason for feeling this way. Beside I am in New York right now being the Mistress of Ceremonies for the Annual BondCon. I also have a lot of shoots waiting for me at home once I return. Work always cheers me up and energizes me. This week in New York will hopefully snap me out of it.
I think I am just going through a deep thought ‘who am I, what I am I doing here’ hippy-bohemian kind of faze. I just have a bunch of stifled energy inside me that is getting impatient from being sitting on the bench for so long. I want to do so much, I really want to help the world and all that self-vaildating sort of stuff. I just don`t know how to go about it. I need to figure out how and where to channel this energy in a positive and successful way. Ok, ok….enough, I am getting to complicated in my thoughts and I am stating to annoy myself!
When I get back from New York, you might see some improvements and a great big addition to our site here. I know I have been hyping this up for almost 6 months now, but I really think it will happen this week, once I get back home. So when you log on and see all the major improvements, let me know what you think about it.

Oxox, Stacy

March 13 2003
am still going through this ‘Lull’. This is not like me. I am not my usual energetic, motivated, cheerful self. The phone rings and I don`t even want to get up to answer it. My paperwork, checkbook and closets are all so un-organized. I have not rode my bike in almost a year, nor wanted to. I hate this, I want to snap out of it and there are moments that I do, but not for long. What is wrong with me? Why am I so tired? Why am I in such a depressed state? Am I the only one or is there others going through the same thing I am going through? Could it be because of the economy? Could it be because of what is going on with our world and our politics right now? I could blame it on a slow schedule, but the only reason I have a slow schedule is because I have not been energetic in creating one. However looking at my schedule, it is not so slow. I am working a lot this week and today, then I am off to New York for BondCon, then I have a few shoots waiting for me once I return home.
It could be from my diet, but I doubt it. I am taking my vitamins and I cheat so much that I really cannot call it a diet. I am exercising more, which is good and it does help me feel better. Which is probably why I am exercising more than ever, it is the only thing right now that does help my ‘lull’. I just don`t feel like going anywhere. I just want to sit on my couch, watch TV, snack all day and exercise for a couple hours before going to bed. I really can not take feeling like this any more, but saying that does not make it better. I gue s s it is just a faze that I am going through. I will just have to force myself out of this state. I will keep you posted. In the meantime, how are you guys?

Oxox, Stacy

March 06 2003
Last Sunday morning, Bridget (one of the nice Hefner girlfriends, http://www.briemarqs.com ) and I went on a mini road trip to Lodi California, where she used to live. She had to go up there for a doctor appointment and visit her family while we were there. We loaded up her fire engine red turbo VW Bug with all of our luggage, lots of rocking CD`s for music, and her Black furry Cat Gizmo and went on the 5 hour drive up the coast. It was a very short trip, we returned the next day and got back around 8pm Monday. I am always up for a adventure to a place I have never been before, especially when I don`t have to be away from home & my kitty kats for a long time. She introduced me to her family, had a great dinner and saw where she used to live. Very nice, I love her decorating fashion sense, very colorful and wacky….kind-of like mine J
Just incase you missed this on my Current Events Page: I will be on LIVE on the Playboy RADIO Show Night Calls Mon. March 10th @ 5pm PAC time! Details: http://www.xmradio.com/programming/channel_page.jsp?ch=205 ! To call in & talk to me LIVE dial: 1(800) 359-8100 –
I am on page 13/14 of the NEW April issue of Playboy Magazine (the one w/ Carmen Electra on the Cover) with Hef, Tom Leykis, The Leykettes, Shauna Sands and a few Playmates! Details: http://www.Playboy.com (I am the Butterfly in Group Photo on their site)
I am also in the Newest Issue of the UK`s leading Fetish Magazine, Skin Two!! I still have yet to get my copy, but they tell me I am in their Feature on BondCon and in a few times in their Gossip Section! Details: http://www.SkinTwo.com

Oxox, Stacy

Febuary 27 2003
There is a little drama going on right now. Remember how the girls at the Playboy Mansion didn`t want to be seen with me because of my few porn flicks I did? Well someone stumbled on a porn chick who looks a lot like one of the girls that picked on me. The office brought it to her atte ntion and she denies that it is her. A few of us are convinced that it IS her, but nothing more was done. She denies it and they believe her. When this happened to me, I was honest and told the truth. Yet again, I see that being bad, mean & lying works. I am not saying that I should or will do it, I cannot do that, but it is funny how people continually get what they want by doing things that are not right.
Texas was fun, however with the pounding Rain, I stayed in the hotel where most of the fun was. The weekend was pretty much filled with Brunch, Lunch, Dinner, Dancing, Some Vendor Booths, Awards and after Parties while wearing your best Latex. I did a Bondage Demo with Phil Carson and Jewel Marceau, which was pretty hot! Jewel is one sexy little minx! I was good this year and didn`t buy the whole place out in the vendor section. I couldn`t this time. I am a little (okay, a lot) lighter in the wallet this month. My Fetish Chick t-shirts were a hit though! They loved them. I wish I brought more with me, but I ended up selling the little that I did have. (you can see them at: http://www.VictimOfLife.com )
I also have a few of my videos for sa le right now at rock-bottom prices on Ebay. Check them out at: http://members.ebay.com/aboutme/dangerbeach/

Oxox, Stacy

Febuary 20 2003
I am in Texas right now attending The Annual Texas Latex Parties. I will be un-reachable until I return on Monday Feb. 24th.
I decided to cancel my Liposuction Appointment. I just couldn’t do it, for many reasons. I was nervous about it. I was worried about the outcome and what my skin would look like, scars, dimples, and stretch marks? I also was not looking forward to the 4 weeks off work and the 4 weeks of being swollen and in pain. I also could not exactly afford the time off work, let alone the cost of the operation. Besides, I have been doing Pilates, changed my diet a bit & increased my cardio and I am seeing a difference in my body. I am losing weight and I like the results I am seeing so far.

Oxox, Stacy

Febuary 13 2003
Monday was fun. I got to play a ‘Mobster Babe’ for the ABC`s TV Show ‘Less then Perf ect’. I like that show, I relate to the redheaded Sara/Claude character a lot. I am wearing a Zebra print blazer, mini skirt, fushia furry tube top, they put tons of make-up on me, teased up my hair really big with tons of hairspray and tons of gold jewelry. I got to meet the cast of the show like Andy Dick & Eric Roberts and a couple guys from The HBO TV Show The Sopranios (they make a guest appearance in this episode). I love doing TV Sitcoms. They are so much more fun and more intimate than doing Movies.
It is pouring rain over here in LA. I have a ton of errands to run, but I hate going out in the rain, especially when it is pouring like it is now. I am stuck at home, which was nice yesterday, but I am getting a touch of 'cabin-fever' today. Well, at least my car is getting nice & clean J. Yesterday was officially ‘do nothing, watch TV, eat & snuggle with the cats Day’ I love those days. I spent most of the day without heat. I have loose wires. I have to shake them and twist them sometimes to get my wall furnish to work and it took awhile for me to get the wires to cross the right way. I ate all day (diet, low fat stuff), I snuggled with my furry little kitty kats, I watched TV all day & then I watched The Who`s Rock Opera ‘Tommy’, which I love, I love Rock Operas. It was fun to see Jack Nicholson act & sing in a musical! I love Ann-Margret in that movie. She is so awesome. I really think she is the most beautiful girl I the whole world!
Today, my heat is working too good. I can`t seem to get it to turn down. I hate to turn it off, because it is getting harder and harder to get those wires to cross correctly. I just opened the front door to let some cool air in. I think the roof gutters need to be cleaned. The roof gutter lets all the caught up water from the roof fall right over my front door. It is making my door all warped and hard to open & close. I also get a massive puddle inside my house every time I open the door to get in, let alone getting soaked from having to walk under that little waterfall I got going on over my door. I know, I know, I need to call my property manager. I do, but it is like pulling teeth to get them to do an ything. When they do send somebody, it is always at the wrong time, or I have to wait all day, or it does not get done correctly, or it just does not get done at all.
This weekend should be fun. I am going to The Mardi Gras/Valentine Party at The Playboy Mansion. I will probably spend the weekend there. I have been spending most of my weekends there. I enjoy the late night Scrabble/Monopoly/Clue games I get to play with Bridget (one of the few nice girls at the Mansion). It`s fun, we order late-night snacks, sodas, we girl-talk, watch crappy dating shows on TV and play board games unti l we can barely keep our eyes open.

Wishing you all a Very Happy Valentine`s Day!!!!!
Oxox, Stacy

Febuary 06, 2003
I want to be like Ann-Margret. I want to do Las Vegas style acts on stage. Complete with background dancers, fancy lighting, stage props, things that fly me into the air, fancy glittery costumes, energized music, singing & dancing! I think I will take a dance class to get that energy out of my system. I just have a bit of a challenge on fitting it into my schedule, but I got to figure out how to do it. I am tired on doing fancy stage ŒBritney Spear type‚ dancing behind closed doors hidden in my home or in my head as I am driving to a shoot listening to a great song. I want to express it in real life. But then again, I always say that and then always loss my nerve when I am about to do just that. That should be my New Years Resolution, to confront my fears and just do it, weather I fail or not, either way, I will win just from doing it, right?! Ah hec with it, I think I will just grab a Diet Shas ta Black Cherry Cola and see whats on TV.teehee

January 30, 2003
I am seriously considering liposuction. I all ready put a down payment and scheduled my appointment for Feb. 25th. It will cost me a bundle, not only for the operation, but the $$ lost from time off work/shoots to re-cooperate. I will be close to broke if I do it. I will be bruised and swollen for about 4 weeks. I should be resting and not doing anything for at least 1 week.
I know, I know, I am not fat, but I really want to get rid of a few problem areas that I have had all my life. I am getting 5 areas treated. 1.inner thighs, 2.outer thighs, 3.back of thighs, 4.flanks (what we call 'love-handles'), and possibly 5.tummy. I am just nervous and I want to hear from people that had this done.
I want to know what to expect. Will my skin look the same? Will it be better or worse? Will I be all ripply? Will I have scars? I discussed this with the doctor, and he says everything should work out fine. His nurses in his office have had this done and they look terrific!
2 weeks before, I will need to take a lot of medicat ion to get my body ready for the invasion. Right afterward, I will need to wear a special garment, kind of like a girdle to keep the swelling down. I will be bruised, swollen and very sore for about 2-4 weeks.
I am excited and can`t wait, but at the same time I am extremely nervous about it, financially and physically.

Oxox, Stacy

January 23 2003
I am finally getting back into the swing of things. I am back to shooting 2-3 times a week. I did a few wrestli ng shoots & more leg shoots, since my debut in Leg Show Magazine. I have many upcoming shoots. I am making personal appearances at Foot Parties. I just joined a gym to get myself into better shape. It is that time again to clean the house `sigh` I am seriously thinking about getting a maid. I just never hired one before, so I am a bit nervous how to go about it.
The only thing that still bugs me is my stomach. You see I have always had this digestive problem ever since I had several tumors taken out of my abdomen several years ago. At times my stomach will grow to look like I am about 6 months pregnant and it can last for a day or so. It is embarrassing and very hard to hide, especially on a shoot! That`s not the worst part, the worst part is that it hurts really bad and extremely uncomfortable. The only thing that eases the pain is laying down and letting time take its course. It plays havoc with my skin, the pain of it stretching out and retracting. I seem to have the digestive system like a snake. You know, like when a snake eats a mouse, you can see the mouse in the snakes belly from the outside until it is completely digested. That is me. The doc says my intestines were crushed while I had 6 grapefruit size tumors in me during those 6 plus years long ago. Who knows, all I know is I now I have a love-hate relationship with food. I love the way it tastes, but it hates me. My body is just not meant for eating. It is kind of a bummer, because I kind-of like food.

Oxox, Stacy

January 16 2003
BondCon was a great success! It was the very 1st West Coast Edition of BondCon held at the same time as AVN Adult Expo & CES in Las Veg as Nevada. I had a booth all the way hidden in a little corner along with Dita & The World Of Pin Up (Robert Bane Gallery in LA). I had a great time signing autographs, posing for pictures and meeting all of my friendly fans that I have only communicated through the web. My energy level was at it`s normal high level∑.except on the last day, when, like always my voice disappeared. When my voice goes, my energy goes. I like to communicate, that is why I am at the convention in the 1st place, so I always get a little down when my voice goes. I should purchase one of those voice boxes that people use when they cannot talk, t hat would be cool. However, voice or no voice I managed to do an interview for Maxim Magazine, Tongue Magazine & AVN News.
A few celebrities walked through BondCon, like Penn of the magic show Penn & Teller and the comedian Andr ew Dice Clay& #8721;.who knew? I got to do a small part in the Burlesque Show with Dita, Catherine and Persephone. I was basically a bound girl that became a living coffee table on the stage. That was pretty cool. I also made a few contacts and I am working on creating a Fetish Reality Based Show for either MTV, Showtime or FOX. We will see what happens . B.T.W. Check out the New (I believe the March issue) of Leg Show Magazine, I am featured in it drinking Wine & eating Grapes with my toes!
I missed my kittys so very much!!! When I got home, I didn`t even un-pack or anything. I just sat on the couch, watched TV, ate any crappy food that was left in the fridge and cuddled my children (what I call my cats) for 2 whole days before I got off my ass and did anything. My cats missed me sooo much, I would feed them, clean their catbox & give them clean water, but they didn`t care, all they wanted was to snuggle up on me and meow to me how they spent their week. Soooo swe et∑.infact Johnny is at my feet right now waiting for me to get off this computer so he can cuddle with me on the couch. Okay, okay∑..Joe Millionaire (the TV Show that I will probably watch) and kitties here I come!!

Oxox, Stacy

January 09, 2003
Momentum breeds momentum. That is my new motto, along with, true happiness is when you are enjoying the moments between the ups and the downs. I am reading the auto-biography of Ann-Margret in which makes those life-changing statements. I have always believed that, but when you see it in black and white, it sums it all up for you and you get a boost of p ositive energy. I was beginning a slump during this holiday and was on the verge of a major depression, but when I read those words, it made me realize that I am creating my own misery and it was time to get off my lazy butt, stop feeling sorry for myself and get on with making the best of my life. I got to keep going, no matter how trivial my daily tasks may seem, I must trudge along and do something, anything, everything!
I am just so tired of being half-fastÖ.meaning I really don`t think I jump fully into anything. My whole life I dabble in this and that, but never jump and completely commit myself to totally sub-merging myself into anything. I am so tired of that, but maybe that is all I will ever be. One foot in the un-predictable waters of my dreams and one foot on the stable ground of sensibility. UmmmmÖ. What to do, what to do. Do I go outside myself and jump in those waters in fear of downing in my own fears or do I stay safe and dry, but feeling like I am selling myself short.
Stay tunedÖ.I am in Vegas attending BondCon (http://www.BondCon.com), talking to my peers and figuring out what is next in the world of Stacy Bu rke. You are welcome to join me in my ever so un-predictable, ever so many life-changing, crazy road of life that I creating as we speak!

Oxox, Stacy

January 03, 2003
I should have noticed this, but the holidays got me all tied up (excuse the pun ;-)&n bsp; but part of last weeks updates were a repeat of pix. l hate that l let that slip by, it was not intentional. To make up for it, l am posting 2 weeks of updates this week. l will post 2 new full photo sets, a new video clip, a new featured friend, and of course new Current Events (in bold print following this sentence) and Stacy`s Words (which you are reading right now :-)
This Week @ StacyBurke.com: Starting the New Year out right by packing this weeks updates with Extra Extra Goodies! 1st) a cute campy live-action Comic Strip Superheroine story; Flag Girl vs Boom Boom`s Evil Circus of Terror! (filmed by Octavio & SickChixxx) 2nd) me Bound and Single Leather Sleeved in Leopard print Lingerie by Slamm! 3rd) a Sexy Video clip of me in a PVC two peice outfit & frolicing in my Boots filmed by the people at Bootlovers.com! 4th) Friend Natalie Bach featured in my Friends Section!!

This Week @ BondageChick.com: Jungle Girl Bound -and- a Video Clip of me & Dorothy Laine enjoying a hot cup of Holiday Cocoa in Sexy Holiday Lingerie while Bound back to back by the Fireplace!!

This Week (Jan. 9th-13th) be sure to catch me in Vegas at http://www.BondCon.com!!
I hope you all had a terrific New Years Eve, I did!! It was a wonderful party at The Playboy Mansion. I invited my friend Rob Nelson (http://www.SaveTheRobNelsonShow.com). I felt bad because he was there all alone. I told him I was going to introduce him to people and keep him company. I did not do that, well not until the last hour of the party. I was caught up in the excitement with Hef & the girls. Everybody told me he would be okay, but I still worried, after all, I am the one that invited him. It was New Years Eve, you hate to be responsible for ruining somebody`s New YearÖ.you always remember New Years! I hate going to parties where I do not know anyone. He said he really did not mind and he had an okay time. A few girls (the girls from the TV Show The Bachleor) even flirted with him & danced with him. I still feel bad though.
Hopefully by this time next week, my big surprise for you all will be ready! I am adding many cool features to our little Fetish-a-go-go world right here!!

Oxox. Stacy

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