Meltdown, Clean up on Isle 7!

I had a little Meltdown - my miss communication hindered and hurt others - to those affected, I am truly sorry - I really mean no harm - I am just going thru a weak moment right now. 

I dunno....maybe it is mid-life crisis, personal, family issues.....etc........just thought l would be further in life....doing something more important.....everything that is said or done 2me, l feel more deeply than ever......l lash out like a cobra when l feel threatened, even if it is only in my own screwed up head.....like the straw and the camel but on a bigger scale......or maybe l have always been like this, but with the birth of social media, it gets broadcasted and put in front of me with a magnifying glass.

More info to come......

Hoping to go to Ren Fair today

Waiting for Hubby to wake up to find out if we are for sure going to the Ren Fair today. I told him, I pay Car Rental, I drive, I pay for my admission, I pay for my food and my Drinks - all I ask is that my gas is paid for and I will pay for parking in exchange for One Beer - and that we leave at 12noon to get there by 1pm since it closes at 6pm - I think that sounds fair - just waiting to see if he does to!

Avenger Roy getting Scolded by Hunter!

Sunday May 6th, my hubby Roy & I went to the Playboy Mansion to spend the day, have dinner and watch the New Movie - The Avengers. Roy is a BIG Fan of that movie. In fact Roy was sooooo excited, that he was super loud during the movie, so loud that Fred Dryer (Big and Tall actor, from the TV Show Hunter & Ex Football Player) came up to Roy during the movie and told him 'if you don`t shut up, I will make you shut up!' *Gulp* Roy at first chuckled, thinking he was kidding, Fred abruptly scolded back at Roy 'You think I am kidding, but I am not, now be quiet!' and walked back to his seat. Roy looked like a little kid that got into trouble. I wish I could tell you that Roy was well behaved after that, but I can`t.
 a BIG Thank you goes out to Kym & Betty for giving us a Ride, you Rock, we Love you!!!
oxox, Stacy

Cinco De Mayo 2012 in the Shore

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Birthday Boy Roy playing with his Iron Man Mask & Thor`s Hammer

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Family Gathering After Grandmother`s Funeral

My 2 Favorite Moments in the Day

I have 2 Favorite Moments in the Day; #1). at 6am when I get up, watch Sunrise, do my morning routine, chores, feed animals & Hubby, clean, have coffee, do my computer work, pay bills, exercise, get my daily 2do list checked off, get ready for work ----- and #2). at 7pm, come home, make dinner, watch sunset, check emails, turn on TV, pour glass of wine, make popcorn, sit on couch with hubby & kitties watching trashy TV!

My 'Peggy'

it is funny watching my hubby, Roy, on his Client Calls in his Man Cave - Roy all serious, telling them what to do & how to run their business - I wish that the Big Business People on the other end of that phone call could see what Roy looks like - No Shirt, Tattoos, Earrings, Hat Backwards, No Shower, Snacking on Gummi Bears, Some Cheesy Movie on Mute, Cat on Lap - I Call Roy 'Peggy', like that Discover Card Commercial - LOL!!

Feeding the Meter: What goes in, has to come out, Finding the Balance.

I try not to let things bother me, I try to stay quiet and understand that what others do or say to me is only a reflection on them - however, it is difficult. We as people do get affected by what others do or say to us & around us, even if you do not react to it. It is like feeding the meter. You hear these things, it registers, we absorb it, we see it, we feel it, it is with us.....as time goes by, it fills us up and we have to let it out somehow. What ever toxic thing that we get exposed to has to come out somehow, someway, some day, some time. Sometimes it may take a long time, sometimes you can let it go until it over flows, explodes or you might have to let it out a little bit at a time. People around you might think it is coming from nowhere, they might think you are just acting crazy, they might think you have no reason for your outburst......but you know better....or maybe you don`t....you might be a little puzzled why you flipped out yourself. Everything that goes into you has to come out, no matter what it is. Even good things. If good things go into you, good things come out. If Bad things go into you, bad things need to come out. If not emotionally, then it might come out physically.....health problems, mental problems, financial problems, etc.
The thing I am trying to do is trying to control how to let the bad things out. It is frustrating, but I really have to explain everything toxic that comes out of me and explain to others where it came from, or at least try to. I try not to hold things in to avoid the explosive out burst and try to let it out without causing the toxic waste to contaminate someone else. This is very difficult at times, especially when you might not remember or understand what, how, why or who put it there in you in the 1st place.
Being human this is a difficult task at times. Especially if alcohol is involved or emotions get the best of you. It is also hard to verbally explain or communicate to the person who put it there what the toxic thing is and why it affects you so much. You also have to remember that if they are sluing toxins to you, that they must have got their fill of toxins from somewhere else. They might even not understand what, how or why they are doing it. They might even be in denial and refuse to see what they are doing. They might just be trying to place the blame elsewhere, they might want or try to make you take the blame, carry the burden, to release it from them, to try to cleanse them self from it. It is just the way it goes. Even though I understand all this, it does not make it easier, but it helps me at times to at least try to do the right thing.
I am not even sure if I put this all into words all that great. I am just trying to sort these things out myself. I just want things better and maybe understanding this and trying to adjust my reactions might help. It might even help you. If that is so, then this post was well worth it.