Thursday, April 19, 2012
it is funny watching my hubby, Roy, on his Client Calls in his Man Cave - Roy all serious, telling them what to do & how to run their business - I wish that the Big Business People on the other end of that phone call could see what Roy looks like - No Shirt, Tattoos, Earrings, Hat Backwards, No Shower, Snacking on Gummi Bears, Some Cheesy Movie on Mute, Cat on Lap - I Call Roy 'Peggy', like that Discover Card Commercial - LOL!!
Monday, April 16, 2012
The thing I am trying to do is trying to control how to let the bad things out. It is frustrating, but I really have to explain everything toxic that comes out of me and explain to others where it came from, or at least try to. I try not to hold things in to avoid the explosive out burst and try to let it out without causing the toxic waste to contaminate someone else. This is very difficult at times, especially when you might not remember or understand what, how, why or who put it there in you in the 1st place.
Being human this is a difficult task at times. Especially if alcohol is involved or emotions get the best of you. It is also hard to verbally explain or communicate to the person who put it there what the toxic thing is and why it affects you so much. You also have to remember that if they are sluing toxins to you, that they must have got their fill of toxins from somewhere else. They might even not understand what, how or why they are doing it. They might even be in denial and refuse to see what they are doing. They might just be trying to place the blame elsewhere, they might want or try to make you take the blame, carry the burden, to release it from them, to try to cleanse them self from it. It is just the way it goes. Even though I understand all this, it does not make it easier, but it helps me at times to at least try to do the right thing.
I am not even sure if I put this all into words all that great. I am just trying to sort these things out myself. I just want things better and maybe understanding this and trying to adjust my reactions might help. It might even help you. If that is so, then this post was well worth it.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
My Rented Chariot for this week, a 2012 Mazda something - not Sure if I like it better than the Nissan Versa I rented last week - I know the Versa was a Lot cheaper to rent, this baby cost $60 a day (w/Insurance) - however I do like the Look of the Mazda better - Now for the True Test......Driving it in Traffic, on the Freeway, in So Cal, in the Rain!
Now on my way to run errands, walk pups, then off I go to My Grandmother`s Viewing, Rosary, Visit Family, then Funeral tomorrow.
Monday, April 9, 2012
I soooo LOVE Madonna - Not for her Music, but who she is - She is 4ever awesome, 4ever Beautiful. What do you want? Her 2put on housecoat for all you age-ist? Hell to the Nooooo......she is up there with Ann Margret, Cher, Tina Turner, Rachel Welch, Barbra Eden, Charo, Dolly, Lauren Bacall, Etc....Go On with your Bad Self Sister....I am on the Dance Floor with ya Girl!
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Monday April 2nd, a couple of my Girlfriends gave me a ride to visit my Grandmother at her Assistant Living Home. Grandma stopped eating that Friday before and the Doctors put her on Morphine to ease the pain of her body shutting Down. I wanted to go and see her for the last time. When I walked in my Aunt and Uncle were there. My Aunt was crying and told me that my Grandmother was waiting for me. When I approached my grandmother, she reached out and her eyes were half open with a glassy look. I held her hand, told her I love her, that she was my Best Friend, she will always be my best friend, I told her thank you for everything she ever done for me and that it is okay if she goes, it is time. I sat with her for about 3 hours, talking to her about the memories we shared of her raising me, walking me to school, going camping, how much I enjoyed making her Easter Baskets & Christmas Stocking every year, how I enjoyed our Cheeseburger & Beer on Tuesdays, how much I know she loves Peeps and the Cologne Tabu. I then leaned over after the hours sitting with her and whispered in her ear 'it`s okay Grandma, everything is going to be okay'. As soon as I said that, she closed her eyes tight, let out a big sigh, her breathing slowed down and shallow and went off to a deep sleep. I wrapped her Rosary Beads around her hand, gave her a kiss on the cheek and left.
Grandma passed away in her sleep @ 7am Wednesday April 4th - she is at peace now in my Grandpa`s Arms - l hope they are dancing - they loved to dance. l actually feel relieved that she is not in pain anymore, went the way she wanted, I got to say my peace & now she`s dancing in heaven w/Grandpa. It will not be a Funeral, it will be a Celebration of her life and the wonderful memories she gave all of us!!
Read the Beginning to this @ http://romantictorture.blogspot.com/2011/01/protecting-my-grandma-fighting-vultures.html
On a Side Note, below is My Horoscope yesterday - how fitting - not only for the loss of my Grandmother - But I have been a bit Restless lately - feeling I need a little change of direction in life, New Adventure.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012 - You can sense that change is in the air when Mercury the Messenger turns direct, especially since this is your ruling planet. You may even feel a bit like Mary Poppins who arrived on a change in the wind and then flew off when it shifted direction once again. However, your current situation is quite different if you can accept that the integration cycle of the past few weeks is coming to an end. Embrace the unknown; it's time to create new experiences.